I Dont even know why I made one of these
0 notes / April 4, 2011
4 notes / April 4, 2011
I can tell you my life story in lifetime Im a very sensitive guy and sometimes I care a little too much to let go of anything I miss her and she doesnt like that.
don’t really know how i feel about him yet. i feel safe with him but at the same time i’m scared to have any feelings for him. i’ve told him numerous of times that i don’t want a relationship or any of that sort of stuff right now, i just want to focus on school and stuff. i offered to just be “friends” but that doesn’t seem enough for him, don’t get me wrong i think he’s a very beautiful guy he’s indeed very sweet and we talk about a lot of things. but i shouldn’t be pressured into a relationship with anybody. the last time i did that, i ended up getting really hurt by say my “best friend” at the time. and right now, i don’t want that, i noticed that i’m much happier when i’m single and i don’t want to take any responsibilities of being a girlfriend. just because i text you back doesn’t mean i’m in love with you, don’t get me wrong here, i like you, i really really like you, but it’s best if i remained single for a while, it hasn’t even been a month since my last relationship ended and i could never be ready for a new one…. well at this rate. i feel like such a horrible person right now for just not willing to make you happy, i mean i want to make you happy and i can, but just not the way you want me to. i don’t why, but months ago i would kill to be in a relationship with a guy, but now i just don’t want to go through that again, i rather spend time with my friends, i have little time left here. and the whole long distance relationship isn’t “poppin’” in my head. i’m sorry javier, but if you’re wondering why i haven’t texted you back, here’s why. i just can’t. i don’t want to grow feelings for you and end in heartache. i’m not ready and i apologize for the inconvenience.
I didnt think it was like this.
Well a guy can only dream right?
Trying to figure this out and I hope I dont get addicted like my girl.